Stressed as hell

Hello sweet little blog! It's been quite some time since I've even updated anything on here. Fear not, I'm still alive! I am not yet completely convinced that this is a good thing quite yet but anyhow... here I am! So since my last post, which was probably forever ago, I have been in school and I was even accepted in to my school's nursing program. That being said, I am sort of overwhelmed with life in general right now. This is my second year in college and I feel that I have finally got a grasp on everything and have become 10 times better at managing my time. However, managing time becomes very difficult when there is just not enough of it. I am currently taking a total of 14 credit hours along with working and attempting to save what little social life I have left. Let's us just say it's definitely one of the hardest things to do. Whenever I finally come home all I want is to rest and forget about deadlines, tests, work, and everything all together. I don't know if it is just me, but sometimes when I have a really busy schedule I tend to just find something else to procrastinate from getting to what needs to be done. For example, updating my "blog" which I have literally abandoned for over 6 months or something. Other times I just shut down and avoid life in general...which I don't recommend, my mind goes pretty crazy after a little of that. Currently, I am on a search to find some stress relief. I feel like venting on this little blog may help but I would also like something that benefits me physically. Yup here we go, the whole "omg I totally wanna get fit and have a super hot bod and just be really happy" speech. Okay well let me just say, I have had little moments where I have tried to "get fit" and the longest I've gone is probably a little over a week. I know, it is pathetic. I just have never really been an exercise person. When I was a kid and we had to run "the mile" I would dread it and wonder why the horrible teachers/coaches would force us to do such a terrible thing. Luckily, my metabolism's always been pretty decent and it was virtually impossible for me to gain weight as a child, and even throughout high school. I mean yes I gained weight as I grew obviously, but I was pretty much a twig up until around junior year. That's about when I started realizing I was actually gaining more than the norm. This didn't really phase me though, but now I'm in college and I have definitely gained weight since starting. I also feel extremely sluggish and tired all the time. I blame my stress for half and my terrible diet/fitness for the other half. This post is probably just all over the place and ranty but who doesn't like a good rant every now and then... besides, when I came up with the name beautiful introspection it was with the intention of releasing what I had inside, and discovering myself along that journey. So here it is! Let's see how long before I update again.... 

XOXO